The World Of Peaches Stephanie

heyyy peaches<3

Ever felt like your dreams is a little too real?

Ever felt like your dreams are supposed to mean something?

Lately I feel like I’m someone else or at least realizing something new about me.

I haven’t been the usual social bug that I’ve always been. Everything seems to piss me off and I cant help but wonder why. Is it because I’m no longer the same girl that can hang with the people that i used to? is my views on life effecting me? Is it because i don’t have as much friends? I really cant say but i questioned it within the last few days. I feel like I’m slowly losing myself, but what can i do to bring me back? I don’t want to be the person who cant have a job because I cant be around people.

I’m beginning to feel people who say they are my friends are not my friends. I hate being tossed around and put in the mix when I shouldn’t be there. what to do, what to do? my kids keep me sane but when they are in bed, I can”t help but think how annoyed I am with the people I social with now.

I just felt like getting this off my chest so don’t think I’m going crazy.

My last two days on facebook, I have seen some crazy things from young mothers, or mothers to be. I recently got a baby sitting job as well, and I pass my old highschool and that bothers me as well.

First let me talk about Port Richmond. I pass that school on a daily basis now. And I swear I see more teens with children than I have ever saw when I was there. How about I saw a girl that was supposed to graduate with me and is still there WITH A BABY NOW! That goes to show you for the teens that cant handle it and start slacking on everything else. This girl had her kid in jordons all name brand stuff, but your still in highschool. How about you keep focus on school instead of name brand clothing for you and your child. Thats why you still up in there. Now all these teens are still getting pregnant not having any idea how hard it is!

Facebook. Ugh. These girls I know are killing me, one girl has a kid, and one girl has a baby on the way! The one with the baby is complaining about how teen mom made it so easy, and that she gets no sleep and its soo frustrating and she cant take it, and all her friends are telling her YOUR A GOOD MOM, DONT WORRY ABOUT IT.  Mean while i told the girl just to stay calm and you’ll get through it, this is what motherhood is about, many sleepless nights, and it doesnt get better until they are of age. if your baby is crying you will learn eventually how to soothe the baby. I just dont understand why noone told her about herself. The other girl talking about she wanna end her life. So I yelled at her cause she has a child in her, and her actions will cause that child its life. but of course all her friends arent asking her whats wrong. just look at this persons profile. IM LIKE GIRLS WHATEVER YOU POST ON YOUR FACEBOOK, PEOPLE WILL TAKE A CERTAIN WAY AND WILL CALL ACS ON YOU AND THINGS WILL HAPPEN! why arent any of these peoples friends and family caring! these are the young minded people that shouldnt be having kids or be having sex at all.

I NEED TO TALK TO TEENS ASAP ABOUT PREGNANCY BEFORE WE HAVE ALOT MORE DUMB PEOPLE HAVING CHILDREN! AND THESE CHILDRENS LIVES ARE AT STAKE! does anyone care anymore!

I am a mom of two kids, I had them young. My daughter is going to be 3 and my son is 1. Let me tell you this is not an easy thing to be. Being a mom is not all its cracked up to be either. Don’t think for one minute I’m saying I hate this job, cause I love it. But its hard. Being a mom means alot, not just the buying stuff, but you also have to put your everything into it. Literally…

I remember when I had my daughter, I was already set to give up my life for her. She was my life at that point. I remember my first two nights home with her. OO my. It was hard. I remember thinking this isn’t bad since i wasn’t tired. As soon I was ready to go to bed, thats when it hit me hard. Babies get up every few hours, or won’t sleep at all. And just to my luck this little girl didn’t wanna sleep! I was soo tired. I tried everything, wrapping her, feeding her, changing diapers, burping. This girl just wanted to be in my arms, and thats how we fell asleep. Eventually… lol. The second night was even worse. I just couldnt figure it out. My mom finally came to help me, and sure enough she fell asleep for her. Still to this day I dont know why. After that, she still gave some fight, but not as long. But i clearly remember those times she didn’t wanna sleep unless she was in my arms, and just putting her in the bed with me and fallling asleep with her. I know the law says don’t sleep with your child but I just couldn’t handle it. So don’t think I was the best mom out there. I just did what I had to do, and I couldnt stand to listen to her crying, it made my heart bleed. Let me tell you if I could I wish she woulda slept by herself. Because this little girl, she never let me live or breath with out her near. I had to take her to the bathroom with me, to clean. It was just alot of work.

To the point I couldn’t even clean with out her wanting me, so finally at a time my mom told me to strap her to me in the carrier just to clean cause she had enough. It worked too, if it wasn’t for my mom I don’t know what would have happened. I was a new mom and I was soo hooked on just stopping her from crying I didn’t know what to do. After awhile I got the hang of it. I took her everywhere with me, even if it was just to see a friend of mine, or go to the store.

 My mom never took her from me so I could have that breathing time. My breathing time was when she slept. Thats why I come down on alot of young teens or now young women who are in the shoes I once was in. I got taught differently, and I apperciated it. Not at the time though, but now I do. I didn’t have a man to help me out with her, we were still dating yes, but he didn’t live with me, or come pick her up like that. I did everything, to doctors appointments, blood work, the wic appointments, washing clothes, the cleaning, the feeding, and still had to take care of myself at the same time. I’m different then all the other teen moms I didn’t have my parents helping, only if i had a job did my dad watch her, other than that. just me.

Now I have two! Its alot harder! My son sleeps in his own bed thank god, he crys alot though for no reason, and they like to run around screaming like its the best thing in the world. Of course I go to bed every night with a headache, But its worth it. The only problem I have is traveling with the both of them. It was easy while he was still small, but hes heavier now. I don’t own a double stroller, and im small. So imagine my struggles. I still cook for them, bathe them, clean clothes, potty training, teaching them right from wrong alone. Even though my man and I are still together, I refuse to depend on his help. The day we break up I need to make sure I can handle this on my own.

I hear alot of young mothers, complain about oo i never get to go out, my parents wont watch the baby, the baby father doesnt do this and that. Well hunny, those teens who got that were spoiled. Once in awhile is okay, or ask yourself are you really deserving of it? I have a friend of mine where her mom watches her baby while she works and goes to school and once in awhile to do whatever she has to do, but if you sit and think about all the things shes doing, going to school, working, teaching her daughter right from wrong, making sure she has everything she needs, and following her parents house rules, she is really deserving of it. And plus it isn’t a everyday thing.  Don’t always think your man is going to stay with you over some baby. Alot of men up and leave but come back for the child. Listen as along as they are supporting that baby and he sees the child, what else do you want? I understand alot of people want to stay for the sake of the child, but that eventually turns out ugly.

I learned that the hard way with my own parents. The worst part about being a young mother is trying to support your child. I had no job expierence and now I have some and its hard to find a job out here. Can’t be on welfare forever, when you have a family it lasts for only 5 years. If you young women think welfare or any other state programs will always help you, well your wrong. They all eventually cut off. At this point if you can’t support your baby who will? Don’t depend on your family, they can only help out for awhile, not everytime.

One thing I learned being a mom is if you need something, you can ask for help but what you really need to do is get up and do something for yourself. I’ve started getting books to train myself better on computer software, looking for programs where I can talk to young teens about pregnancy, about to sign up for school to start my career off, and I’ve been looking for work since I lost my last job. Its hard out there, and being a mom isnt any easier. If can’t handle the crying, stepping up to the plate fully, not depending on anyone, then as i say all the time, this isn’t the life for you. I made my kids my life, and I don’t go out either, even though I know I need some me time, But I put my kids first always! And thats what alot of women need to do. Put those drugs, drama, always wanting to be outside to the side, and take care of what matters.

Someone told me this site was for mature people, and all I keep seeing is immature people. When I signed up I was to believe this was a blog where you can talk about topics, post pictures that have signafince with a story behind it. So far I’ve seen more posting of random pictures with no story with it, and less typing. Where I’m confused. Is this Facebook all over again where we can post stuipd pictures? Or a site to put things out there?

Don’t get me wrong, everyone has their reasons to use the site. Noone seems to have orignality but only a certain few. Everytime I log in all I see is so and so reblogged xyz. We all have a sense of humor, photos that we like, but thats more of a facebook or myspace thing.

I’m not trying to nit pick with people, I’m just confused as to what this site is really meant to be for people.

Do people want a change in their life style, to change their surroundings, and actually be somewhere or someone in life? I know I do, and the only way to make that happen is for me to get up and make it happen for myself. It’s just not going to come to me. You know the saying, good things happen to people who wait? Well you can’t wait forever, put your foot foreward and do something. What goes around comes around, so if you want good things to happen to you, do good things for others, and also at the same time don’t think its still going to come to you without you doing more.

I want a change in the life I live, I want a career, something that i’ve never really taken consideration into. Since the age of 5 all I ever wanted to be was a archeologist, but I tried to take the steps to get there and failed drastically. Only because I allowed myself to fail with the influences around me. But now that I have children, and I was a horrible student, I think archeology wouldnt be the thing for me. I dont want to travel on my kids all the time, I want to be apart of their life. I’m gonna be a hundred percent honest I havent thought of a career since. I figured I’d get a regular job and get my promotions but the way with this economy is going that aint gonna happen.

Now after 3 years I’ve finally thought of a career I would love to pursue. I want to be a counsler for teens, talking about pregnancy prevention, the struggles when you are young having a baby. So far I found a place that will be my stepping stone for now. I would really like to open my own place where I can hold my own teen groups or work withen a school.  But I think i’m gonna sign up for school that will give me a degree to work in different areas as a counsler, you know maybe a drug counsler, mental disabilty counsler, school counsler. This way when I’ve done my part I can always pick up and do more.

I want to make a difference for myself, and a difference for others out there. Ive finally decided on this hearing all the young parents make complaints about the life they live with their new child. Its simple, I think sharing these real life struggles will show people the kind of lifestyle they are going to get involved with, if they think its not for them then its as easy as pie. I know telling anyone not to do anything is not going to work, but I can give all the downfalls and the ups about it. At the end of the day someone is always going to do what they want to.

Being a counsler will help me and them only cause i’ve been in their shoes before. I wonder if anyone has a career they want to pursue at this age and are serious about it.

I think its time for a change, and i know i can make a difference out there.  

I found this while researching that crazy teen. Just like I said I would save the other interesting one for another post, well here it is.

Just from seeing the title alone is outragious! You know, how could someone do that? I’m seriously asking : 1) Where do they do that at? 2) Games got such a hold on you, that your willing to kill your newborn! 3) How the hell are you gonna kill an innocent child all because they are making you get off your ass like you are supposed to!

Like I told every new teen mom, or any mom in general. This is the life you asked for. If you feel you can’t do it, don’t be afraid to ask for help! I offer help and advice to any, any new mom I know just to prevent stuff like this. If you don’t want to live the life of no sleep for a year, or wanna keep partying and drugging. GIVE UP THE CHILD! Don’t put the baby through that. If you are afraid to ask for help, then just save the child grief and yourself. I’m not saying all you new moms, or teen moms are gonna end up killing them, but it can very damn well happen if you can’t handle the crys, the constent doing stuff for your kids cause they can’t do for themselves. Any woman can crack at any time yes, but be ready if your gonna have a kid. Please for the childs sake!

I found this article on cbs.com. So if you look it up there it will be there. This is what I found :

 I found a picture of this woman and let me tell you, she looks like she belongs in a nut house.  This 22 year old woman shook her 3 month old son TO DEATH! All because this child probably cried and made her get off of facebook and she was pissed. I’m sorry but those games have a save, and a pause, you could have come back. I’m a facebook addict, video gamer, but I never scream, or threaten my kids because I have to get up. 

She pleaded guilty though, at least she was honest, but damn. She was charged in january of second degree murder. This woman seriously said “ HE CRIED, I GOT UP SHOOK HIM, WENT TO SMOKE A CIGGERATE TO CALM MYSELF DOWN A BIT AND SHOOK HIM SOMEMORE!” 

The officers said the child might have hit his head in the midest of her shaking him. This happened in Flordia and state guidelines call for 25 to 50 years in prision, but some prosecutor said it could be shorter!

WHY WOULD SHE EVEN BE CONSIDERED TO BE GETTING A SHORTER SENTENCE. THIS WOMAN DESERVES DEATH FOR WHAT SHE DID TO HER SON! WHERE WAS HER FAMILY WHEN THIS WOMAN WAS IN THIS STATE OF MIND? DID THEY NOT REALIZE THAT SHE WAS GOING THROUGH SOME SORT OF STRESS, AND THIS WASN’T THE LIFE FOR HER?

PEOPLE IN AMERICA ARE LOSING THEIR MINDS, SERIOUSLY!